Wednesday, February 19, 2014

NINE


 
Anders turned 9 today. 
Happy Birthday to the most beautiful, most loving, most kind, boy in the whole wide world.
 



Sunday, February 9, 2014

Reading Harry Potter


 

Valentine's Day is Coming


Valentine's Day is coming and I so love this holiday.  I've always loved it.  The older I get the clearer my priorities are, and it's really this simple ~ I believe in the power of the human heart.  These photo's capture it all for me...my biggest three priorities, Anna, Anders and Kuba.  When I see these images I see love.  I know how lucky my boys are to have such a remarkable mom like Anna.  I know how lucky I am to have such a loving family.  Nothing is more important to me.  Except perhaps to live in a way that shines that big love out on the world, and to raise my boys to be kind and loving.  

Saturday, February 1, 2014

The Sandwich Generation

The sandwich generation  is a generation of people who care for their aging parents while also raising their own children.  This describes me, I am sandwiched between my parents and my boys, both who need care and attention.  I don't quite know what I expected life to be like when my parents moved to town, but I don't think I expected it to be quite as difficult as it has been. Surprise!  There is so much to elder care.  I don't think I quite understood, nor still understand, the dynamics of the aging process and the effects it has on the emotions of my parents - and their caregivers.  I am astounded at the difficulty they are experiencing as nearly everything physical begins to betray them....vision, hearing, feeling, walking, independence, you name it, it's changing dramatically.  The loss of this independence is deeply painful, even perhaps confusing for my parents.   Their reliance on us is clear, as is their need for care, love, optimism, kindness, patience, patience, and more patience.  I must say it's hard to be in the middle.  Often, I feel frustrated, impatient, and begging a part of myself for just a bit more generosity - so I can be a better caregiver.   It's not so easy.   I have much to learn about how I can manage this better.   And about how to not be so hard on myself, or my parents and kids, while I fumble and learn.