We've been home for three days now and summer continues.
I was sad that vacation ended but I feel determined to have just as much fun at home as we did at the cape. My summer time off is limited.
The photo's I posted are from vacation too. They are just not photo's of my family, but instead, things I saw that I thought were beautiful.
That is the other thing I am determined to have...a beautiful life. Now that I am fifty, the reality is that my life is probably more than half over. Sobering, isn't it? I have so many ideas about my one life and how to live it - things I haven't achieved yet and I'd like to. I am gently yet fixedly finding my way to an even more kind, poetic, creative, life and family.
It's complex. It means not only living with my immediate family in this way, but in a larger community of people also determined to lead a full life of reaching and shaping and being very present and in the moment. Perhaps it's a little Zen, but I like that too. I feel so very eager about it.
I remember turning 40 and being sort of freaked out about that age. Yet, here it is ten years later and I just feel eager. Having kids really changes everything.
So, if you are reading this, feel free to join me on this journey. I would love to talk, plan, create, and build a big life with all of you. I think some really wonderful things are headed our way.
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