If They Only Knew

One day my kids will grow up, read this and realize how much their moms thought about, worried about, and cared about their happiness and well being at school. I'm thinking about this because I know that Anders has no clue how much I am watching his school experience. Paying attention. He's the kind of kid that doesn't really disclose much so I have to be observant, read the clues I do get, and listen to other kids who verbalize to their moms how first grade is going.
I know I don't want him to know of my concern (or my anxiety) so I am keeping a low profile. A fox in chicken clothing - or something like that. Sound weird? Probably. But I do want him to like school and so I watch. It's not easy working in the same school that your children attend.
I get more information than one would possibly want. And if it's not going well...I get to worry a bit. So, Anders, if you are reading this one day when you are a grown up kid, well I just want you to know how much I care about your school experience. So far you seem okay - sucked a little bit of your shirt collar today after school and you haven't done that in nearly a year. I know it's a sign of rising anxiety. But I will keep watching. And I will do all that I can from my parenting side to help you love school, feel good in school, feel happy about school and your place in it, learn a lot, and grow into a really great kid.
For those of you who know me you know I am an anxious nut about my kids.
I am also a devoted educator and mother and want for my child an experience that is empowering. And, I don't have full control. But I do have lots of ways to ensure that he is happy. And that is what leads me. Stay tuned for first grade updates.