Fear

I received some very bad news today. The kind that wakes you up. Makes you remember what is truly important: my two boys, Anna, love, how my actions affect other peoples hearts. My brother-in-law was diagnosed with stage 4 brain cancer today. This is horrible news. Unspeakable fear shoots through me. I read a quote by Margaret Wheatley - "Just being with your fear, just being it, is the most powerful form of fearlessness." Often I have anxiety about my own health and life - worrying way too early that I might miss my children much too much if I have to leave this planet earlier than I have planned. It's amazing really - how we all choose to live as if we will be here forever and that we have all the time in the world to love those that we love. This news is a big wake up call to me...to kiss the soft cheeks of my children more, tell them I love their smiles, their sadness, their milk spills, their refusals to listen to a direction they don't like. I want to be a good listener, to see THEM, to wisely and slowly teach them about the power of connection, community. I want to remember and to teach them what is most important in this life...to live consciously so that their actions affect people's hearts in a way that grows only more love for this big planet. Fear. Here it is...and now what am I going to do about it? L O V E. That's what.