Tuesday, October 30, 2012

PMS Mothering

AKA - Rotten day with Mommy.

I had the worst PMS today.   Serious sensitivity.  To noise, oh to pretty much everything aound me.
It's the worst kind of day for a mom.
I needed solitude. Time alone. A time out really.
Plus it was a day off from school for both boys due to Hurricane Sandy.  Anna worked, I was on.
This meant that by 1 pm in the afternoon I was fried.   I was trying to do too much.  The boys were playing all morning, but I was trying to clean, organize, sort through a long list of things to do, and trying to stay tuned in to them when things seemed to go awry. And today with me, that felt like every second.  Additionally,  Anna plays volleyball on Tuesday nights, so I also had bedtime duty.

I had a wicked chocolate craving as well, and I became a victim to 3 slices of a delicious brownie some secret halloween friend had dropped off.  Was she psychic or what?

I took Kuba to work with me for hours today hoping he would scoot around on his new plasma car while I did some work.  Anna took Anders to the allergy doctor.  I brought my ipad for him, I had art supplies, I had him helping me put together a display, but none of this was good enough.  He really needed devoted one on one time, and I was only half way engaged.   Not a good combo. I felt annoyed more than I felt engaged with him.  Not my ideal definition of a good day with mom.

And now, I am going to bed.   Let's hope tomorrow is better. 
And let's hope the crazy desire for sugar can be tamed in the new day. 

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